I mentioned in earlier blogs that I was over him. However, that was not true. Today it has officially ended. I'm happier than ever to get over a guy.
A few years ago, we had a 'Godly relationship' talk with our teachers at my school. My teacher when she was 16, had in mind what we wanted in a boy. From his body build, to his hair and his voice. She wanted someone who was medium suit to suit her, dark hair to contrast her blonde, and an accent. Well, that's exactly what she got. By the way, this wasn't based on looks, but it's an example of showing how specific God is. She has her perfect boy, and she's happy. Now, involving my scenario I have my boy set in my mind. I know what qualities that I need in him, so he is my better half. I want a boy with the most gorgeous, blue/green eyes anyone has seen. Slim to fit me, taller cause I'm just really petite, hair to side ( i like emo hair, get over it) and okay.. I love cute boys with nose rings. I KNOW IT'S WEIRD, BUT I THINK IT'S HOT.
This boy, had nothing of those. Also, he didn't have the qualities I wanted in a boy. Yet, it seemed like I was forcing myself into something that I knew was a waste of my time. He led a lifestyle, that I don't want. I have a career I want, and when I pictured myself with him... He was hindering it. He swore like a sailor, drank till the end of tomorrow and smoked his cares away. I knew this, yet I refused to use to get over him. I think because I love the feeling on liking someone, I forced myself into it. Ladies, it's dangerous... please don't do it.
Today, I finally saw he was in a relationship. I smiled, thanked God and simply closed the page. Before, I would cry and flip out. Yet, this was my sign from God saying that I could do better; so much better, because I deserve better. This is the second time it has happened, and it started when I started to pray more. I told God to give me the right heart and wisdom to see and know. Since then, I can tell immediately and what was oblivious is now my natural instinct. God is good, and my boy is on his way. I know this is a prayer that was answered perfectly.
Congrats to him, I'm happy for you. I wish you all the best.
So in this hourEverything I doWill be all for this momentEverything is for youMy heart is openAnd will endSo take it
So much feeling of my soul
It's singing
Boys are such a hassle. A mess of good looks and confusion, right? Siiiggghhh
But I'm so glad you see God working <3