Lent

I did Lent a few years ago as Jennifer brought it up and I thought it was a great idea.

I did it, I think about 2-3 years ago. It was an amazing decision, those forty days helped define who I am today. They changed my character, outlook and appreciation tremendously. God is good. I saw and recognized how big of an impact it had on me, and I have decided to do it again.

For this year, I will not reveal what my Lent sacrifice is. However, it is not a mere sacrifice that I will give up for 40 days then pick up again. This is my attempt for a permanent sacrifice. Sacrifice for something that has made me happy for some time, but it sickens me to my stomach. I need to rid it from my life because damage is caused. My heart, mind and soul have already taken a hit because of it. I draw the line and refuse the power of it to take and destroy who God created me to be. It ends tonight and a rebirth of character will emerge from these forty days. It will not be easy, it will test me beyond my expectation. With strength, prayer and dedication I will persevere.

I'm not Catholic, I just thought I'd make it clear. I am a Christian striving for passion, purity and purpose; all in the name of Jesus Christ. Sacrifice is obedience; it is also a test of character.

I ask for prayer during these forty days. Every prayer will mean a lot to me, and I greatly appreciated everyone who has been praying for me. I love you all. :D

I will also be updating how it is going, just so I can look back and see progress. Also, for all my lovely blog readers to see how God has been moving in my life while I pursue Lent.

Read More 2 comments | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Wow

I haven't blogged in a long time.

Just thought I'd throw that in there.

Lately, My days of been filled with chaos, stress, frustration, writing and music.

I've written about 15 songs in the past 2 weeks.

God is good, and he's putting songs into my heart.

I'll post them once I feel more confident.

ALSO. SALSA-CHEESE BAKED CHICKEN RECIPE COMING SOON.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Just a Week

There's only a week left in the scholarship competition.

Please share the link and get me votes!

i'll love you foreverrr.

Seeing Things in Black and White
Brickfish
Vote | Share | Details

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Treasure

A woman's heart should be so hidden in God, that a man has to seek Him to find her.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Judgement

I came across a comment today that really sparked something inside me. I won't post the actual comment. However, I will describe it lightly. It talked about how ‘they’ believe in Christ, but they think that they are never judged. Thus, leading them into a life of partying, cussing and irresponsibility. I'm not judging at all, I'm just stating the facts. Then they go around to say that ‘he’ will never judge them. I'm pretty sure God is insulted by the fact that they put his name in quotes. They also go on to say that they want to show people that it's okay to live a free lifestyle, because God doesn't judge. That's their message to the world. It’s pathetic how people can believe such egotistical, self-seeking things. Of course God will judge, in fact he is the only one that can and will judge; yet people refuse to admit that. They believe that Christianity is a one-way deal where you can accept salvation and simply forget it, without making any effort into becoming a better person. The world breaks my heart, it breaks my heart even more for them to know salvation only to reject it and then exploit the Lord's name in vain.

God save us.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

New Semester

I started the new semester this week. Geography I aced. :] I got 100%, even though I had no idea what I was talking about. Entrepreneurship was definitely interesting. I dropped French 11 for Accounting. In math, that tends me to be my strongest point. CALCULUS MAKES SENSE! This is unbelievable to me, I understand the concepts and I'm getting everything right. God is good.

Also, an update in the previous math situation.

I passed. :]

Report Card:

History: A

English: B+

French: A+

Math: C-.

I thank God, that I didn't fail. He knew my heart, and gave me the 2.8 percent I ended to get me to a passing grade.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Gold

My soul has never had this feeling.
It feels like gold.

Every time I think about seeing him listed in a relationship; a weird joy erupts form within. A smile appears on my face. I feel like laughing, it's happy laugher. Laugher that releases the burden. This burden caused too much confusion, denial, pain and tears. Good riddance.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Finally: Part Deux

First off, I'll start off about the boy.

I mentioned in earlier blogs that I was over him. However, that was not true. Today it has officially ended. I'm happier than ever to get over a guy.

A few years ago, we had a 'Godly relationship' talk with our teachers at my school. My teacher when she was 16, had in mind what we wanted in a boy. From his body build, to his hair and his voice. She wanted someone who was medium suit to suit her, dark hair to contrast her blonde, and an accent. Well, that's exactly what she got. By the way, this wasn't based on looks, but it's an example of showing how specific God is. She has her perfect boy, and she's happy. Now, involving my scenario I have my boy set in my mind. I know what qualities that I need in him, so he is my better half. I want a boy with the most gorgeous, blue/green eyes anyone has seen. Slim to fit me, taller cause I'm just really petite, hair to side ( i like emo hair, get over it) and okay.. I love cute boys with nose rings. I KNOW IT'S WEIRD, BUT I THINK IT'S HOT.

This boy, had nothing of those. Also, he didn't have the qualities I wanted in a boy. Yet, it seemed like I was forcing myself into something that I knew was a waste of my time. He led a lifestyle, that I don't want. I have a career I want, and when I pictured myself with him... He was hindering it. He swore like a sailor, drank till the end of tomorrow and smoked his cares away. I knew this, yet I refused to use to get over him. I think because I love the feeling on liking someone, I forced myself into it. Ladies, it's dangerous... please don't do it.

Today, I finally saw he was in a relationship. I smiled, thanked God and simply closed the page. Before, I would cry and flip out. Yet, this was my sign from God saying that I could do better; so much better, because I deserve better. This is the second time it has happened, and it started when I started to pray more. I told God to give me the right heart and wisdom to see and know. Since then, I can tell immediately and what was oblivious is now my natural instinct. God is good, and my boy is on his way. I know this is a prayer that was answered perfectly.

Congrats to him, I'm happy for you. I wish you all the best.

So in this hour
Everything I do
Will be all for this moment
Everything is for you
My heart is open
And will end
So take it

So much feeling of my soul

It's singing

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Finally

I just looked at my last blog. Nothing came out as I wanted it too.

I've been writing lyrics for the past few days, and I feel a release now.

I had words stored up in me, all week.

I've been attempting to blog them but they never came out.

Failure is my biggest fear.

God needed me to confront that, for me to grow.

I've met my fear face-to-face, and I'm no longer afraid.

oh. superbowl.

GO CARDINALS!

Read More 2 comments | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Oh Inconsistent Me, Crying Out For Consistency

I got the horrifying results to my math final.

35%, and it brought down my total grade to a %40-something.

My heart broke to see the number, then it hit me.

I could fail and screw graduation.

I've always been honor roll, what's wrong with me this year?

40? I GET 80% ALL THE TIME.

There is more to me than my music, grades, designs and photography.

They don't define who I am.

I need to stop trying to control everything myself.

I need to stop with 2387438 goals, and just stick to what is important.

I need consistency, with those around me, my work, my faith and my mind.

I've crumbled, and I need to be mended.

For the first time, I crawled underneath my sheets, put 'when i go down' and 'let it all out' by relient k and just cried out to God. I cried for 20 minutes, real tears that left me breathless. Matt Thiessen has the the perfect song. Through all my hardest moments, these have brought me to humble ground. I am human, I screw up and I have the nature to reject that. I can't do that, God needs to break me in order for the 'new' me to be born. I am giving myself to him, in my best efforts, completely.

I NEED YOU, GOD.

YOU ARE MY CONSISTENCY.

I'M CRYING OUT, OH GOD.

PLEASE, HEAR MY PLEA.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

20 Facts

Here are the rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 20 random things, facts, habits or goals about you.

1) I tend to be very blunt when I met new people, I think it earns me respect....?

2) I don't like people in my room, it's mine and only for me. Go hang out in the living room.

3) I have 'shirley temple' ringlets, as my natural hair and I hate it.

4) I lose respect for people, easily. Once I see them in a new light, it will never change.

5) I think no one really likes me, and they only talk to me out of pity.

6) My heart breaks for old people. Just seeing them, and how helpless they are... my heart goes out to them so bad.

7) I've already picked names for my kids. I only want two, one boy and one girl.

8) I tend to realize if a guy is worth my time in about four days. So far, none of them have been worth my time.

9) I don't care what anyone says about it, I ~~like~~ LOVE boys with 'emo' hair.. you know, with bangs to the side. *teenie <33333*

10) One of my biggest pet peeves is people eat with their mouths open and loud, open gum chewing. ugh.

11) The smell of coffee gives me a headache.

12) My weight fluctuates from 85 pounds to 100 pounds.

13) I have a thing for Ohio bands. I don't know why, but I do... since 2002.

14) I only like my grades if they are above 90%.

15) My favourite food ever is... 6 inch: cold cut combo on parmesan from subway. with extra mayo and jalapenos and everything on it except tomatoes. AND MY 32 OUNCE DRINK OF STRAWBERRY FRUITOPIA. <3

16) I hate when people spell my name wrong.

17) Regardless if they are sellouts, Paramore has (in my opinion) one of the best female vocalists ever.

18) Grapefruit soda, is amazing.

19) I don't like my church, because of how Christianity is shoved down your throat. I like my school Bible sessions on Wednesday, I learn so much more.

20) I have more online friends that I can have real, deep conversations with. I wish I had that with the people I physically know.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Ouch x 384732

Friday night I went to church with my mom.

We were up in a group praying and all of a sudden, I got a massive stabbing pain in my knee.

I sat down and the pastor, my teacher and friend prayed for me.

After that, I have to limp to get anywhere.

I have bruises all over, both legs.

My right knee is swollen and slightly purple.

My muscles are sore and constantly tired so I can't even put my knee joint perfectly straight.

I tried and my knee quivers and I end up losing my balance and falling over. (it's not funny.)

So for now, I have to put all my weight on my left hip, but!

November (07), I fell at work and I managed to give my left hip a pinched nerve.

I never got it fixed because of school, work and church.

But now, it's just making matters worse.

And this week is finals. AH.

Prayer would be appreciated.

i'd be so happy. :]]]]]

I won't be able to play hockey for the next week.

And if I don't play.. (I'm captain), my team will definitely lose.

I haven't done any work this weekend because I can't even find a place to 'relax'.

Sleeping hurts, walking, standing and even sitting.

ARGH.

but yes, pray. it would definitely mean a lot.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Destroy My Pride

Hey what you got you don't know
Anything that I'm gonna say right now
Cause I'm not so sure why I'm here and why I wanna
Keep on hanging 'round right now
Not that I do it now or any day
Sometimes I just get burned out
About lots of things and well just doubt

So tell me something good you got it and
Why am I so misunderstood cuz I wanna know this
Cause I'm confused and do I break into two
So tell me how about you

Hey what you got something bad and I want it
Even though I know its wrong
But I won't be blessed cause I know this so I can't have that
So I can show I gotta be strong
Man I don't wanna be able to breathe
Be able to see what's become
of the wars of this world
and the wars from my tongue

So tell me something good you got it and
Why am I so misunderstood cuz I wanna know this
Cuz I'm confused and I bruise yes I do so tell me how about you
So please just tell me something good you got it and
Why am I so misunderstood cuz I wanna know this
Come on baby and race me and maybe we'll just find ourselves

I wanna be I wanna be like that mountain
I wanna stand taller and bigger than rest
See I just wanna be it a guy who wins all the time
I wanna be a big star a king and rule my own life
And God I know that it's wrong
So please just make my heart right
Inside and destroy my pride

So you can tell me something good you got it
Why I am so misunderstood cuz I wanna know this
Cause I'm confused and I bruise yes I do so tell me how about you
So please just tell me something good you got it and
Why am I so misunderstood cuz I wanna know this
Come on baby and race me and maybe we'll just find ourselves

Hey what you got something bad and I want it
Even though I know its wrong

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

dumb myspace.

You comment several people, it's okay if they take a few days to reply.

But it's a different thing when they reply to people right before and after you... and they completely disregard your comment.

I need to delete people.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Stop Running

I believe everyone comes to the point in their life where they start to really accept.

Not to accept the fact that not everyone is nice, but the fact that my life is a story book written by God.

There's a beginning, setting, climax, plot and ending. He's the author of my life, directing the steps of my feet according to where He wants me to go.

I'm starting to stop the fear that's scaring me away from university. There's no need to be afraid, He's on my side.. He's my strength and my help in trouble. There's nothing more you could ask for.

I'm started to accept the fact that I am single and very content with that. God will send me my husband/boyfriend when we are both ready. I'm not ready for marriage now, he probably isn't either. When our time is right and when our hearts are ready... God will put us together. God is the author of my love story.

MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC. AH. My love and my time consumer. My heart is in it and when it's ready, God will open the doors, the right connections and whatever I need. I'm working hard now, I'm learning to not cry when I get off pitch in a song. I simply smile, go and work with my coach. Improve, practice and repeat. The right band will come along, then, again, their hearts are ready.. just as mine.

Photography. My pictures suckkkkk. Hahahahahaha. I got criticized by a friend (who calls themselves a pro, but takes pictures like a six year old) because I've only been taking pictures for two years. It's something I like to do, get over it. No one really supports me, but I don't need them. All I need is my God opening my eyes to his creation, and a charged camera. Again, the direction and plot of this chapter will be continued when my heart is ready.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Blurbbbb

This is my final week for my favourite class, History 12.

It's also my last essay, ever and I'm just really sad yet excited about it.

I managed to get all my library resources checked out, noted, sourced and typed.

All I have left is simply five websites and then tomorrow I put it together.

The internet has been 'off' since Monday, so we have no internet at school.

Even the library which has wireless, isn't working.

But, it works out.. I manage to get a heck of a load done. :]

Also, I gave up on the boy.. why?

1) I need someone far more attractive. (Yes, I'm shallow.)

2) His faith was barely at 1/100 of mine.

I had a list, but I forgot. Forgive me.

I had something in my mind, earlier which was going to be my blog topic.

But, I've forgotten; so if it comes back I'll write another blog.

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

<33

It's here!

My lovely 52 inch reflector from Calumet.

http://www.calumetphoto.com/item/RM4052K/

I didn't realize how large, 52 actually is.

I'm 60 inches but yeah. haha.

IT'S HUGE. and collapsing it was hard.

but seriously, I'm so excited to use it.

I just need to find people to photograph.

If only my friends weren't so shy.

Read More 2 comments | Posted by Natahsha Priya

lack of...

I'm not getting as much sleep as I'd like.

It's either because I'm having a disturbing nightmare..

Someone is being rude and noisy in the morning... (i'm a very light sleeper)

or I'm stressed.

I'm applying for my University application in two weeks.

The nerves are killing me softly.

My eyes are bloodshot and my mind is wandering.

And boys are confusing me.

You'd figure if a guy flirts with you, at least he'd reply to you.

Hmm. If he wants me, he can talk to me.

I need to stop over reacting with him.

I don't know....

I'm question so many things, and it's literally tearing my mind apart.

Good to know that I can find peace in God.

My safe haven, to get away from it all.

To be restored is what I need.

And that is what I'll get.

but hey. LOOK A NEW PICTURE.

Ashleigh and I decided to go to the library for books.

No really, we did. Then, I saw booster juice.

So I finally checked out 'Secrets From the Vinyl Cafe,' so stoked to read it.

After... I was heading out but no.

Ashleigh lured me to the fireplace where we took pictures.

Yes, that was pointless but oh well.

Read More 0 comments | Posted by Natahsha Priya

boys.

confuse me.

that is all.

Read More 2 comments | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Book List

My goal for 2009 is to read 25 books. Here's a list of books that I want to read. I'll check them off once they are read. This isn't a full list, I know. These are books that I'm interested in reading, however a book is a book. The goal is 25, we'll see how far I go.

I'm open to suggestions, so feel free to comment.

BOOK WISH READING LIST

1) Romeo and Juliet by Shakespeare

2) The London Prodigal by Shakespeare

3) Macbeth by Shakespeare

4) Othello by Shakespeare

5) East of Eden by John Steinbeck (recommended by Jennifer)

6) The Prophet by Khalil Gibran

7) Secrets From the Vinyl Cafe by Stuart Mclean

8) The Catcher In the Rye by J.D Salinger

9) 1984 by George Orwell

10) Beneath a Marble Sky by John Shors

11) Go Ask Alice by Anonymous (recommended by Melissa)

SERIES

I own them all, but never really read them.

11) 1 - Anne of Green Gables by Lucy Maud Montgomery

12) 2 - Anne of Avonlea by Lucy Maud Montgomery

13) 3 - Anne of the Island by Lucy Maud Montgomery

14) 4 - Anne of Windy Poplars Lucy Maud Montgomery

15) 5 - Anne's House of Dreams by Lucy Maud Montgomery

16) 6 - Anne of Ingleside by Lucy Maud Montgomery

17) 7 - Rainbow Valley by Lucy Maud Montgomery

18) 8 - Rilla of Ingleside by Lucy Maud Montgomery

BOOKS I HAVE READ IN 2009

1) Queen Bees & Wannabes by Rosalind Wiseman

Read More 1 Comment | Posted by Natahsha Priya

Tell Me Something Good

Lent

Wow

Just a Week

Treasure

Judgement

New Semester

Gold

Finally: Part Deux

Finally

Oh Inconsistent Me, Crying Out For Consistency

20 Facts

Ouch x 384732

Destroy My Pride

dumb myspace.

Stop Running

Blurbbbb

<33

lack of...

boys.

Book List

natahsha priya

About

Swidget 1.0

Linkage

Twitter

Twitter Updates

Blog Archive

Search