I feel really strong that I should be conveying out my emotions and thoughts rather than keeping them inside.
This week was over all a good week, I planned to go to youth group on Tuesday night and just as I was handing in my history debate of the week, I saw that I had a huge essay assignment due for Friday. I had to to ditch youth group, which was definitely disappointing. I started right away on the essay. It was a topic about Hitler and the scapegoats that he blamed for WWI. I had spent 4 days straight from 9am to 10pm researching Hitler and the war and I was absolutely amazed and shocked about what I had read. Hitler in my opinion, was not just some mad man he was a man who needed attention, he was jealous and he sought out revenge. Simple. I'll post my essay in this blog after my teacher marks it, just to avoid someone stealing it. I am really impressed with how I did, I hope I get a good grade. In simple terms.. Hitler had psychological conflicts from his childhood to his late twenties, and he was just insane. Enough said.
Socially, I haven't seen any of my friends for about 2 weeks? I saw Kristen two weeks ago but for the rest of the gang it's been over a month. I miss them, I finally found a group of friend
s I can talk to, laugh, and dance with. We always have a great time just talking or rocking out to rock band. I hope I get to see them this Tuesday if my school work works out. Problem with the online school is that the history notes are posted on Tuesday.. which means I have to cram everything in one day... including videos, lecture notes and my first debate. It's absolutely ridiculous and I hope they get it up on Monday. If not, I'll have to miss youth again. I'll possibly email my teacher and ask what's going on. It's when the school does this, that I get extremely stressed out and in a bad mood.
I also had a photoshoot planned with this girl who used to come to my school. The first time we did a shoot, it was good but I came to her so it was free. So last week she wants me to do 5 different sessions, design her comp card all for free. Honestly, that will take my whole weekend up, with editing and designing. So all of a sudden she ditches on MSN like she's dodging me. So her brother, who goes to the school says for me to give him my number so she can call. However I forgot because I was working with the teachers. So then he tells me she has an audition today, which was supposed to be the day of the photoshoot, she couldn't even tell me either so I would end up wasting my day waiting for her. So she logs in on MSN and is like 'F**k you B***h'...I don't like her.. I never did I was just being nice to her cause
no one at the school liked her. But for her to do this, and then all the crap she's put me through when she went to my school. AH. I don't like her simple. Her mom paid $8,000 to do a shoot and the pictures didn't turn out good so they ask a 17 year old amateur photographer and then you treat me like this? Argh. End of it, she has money go hire someone else. Technically I wasn't hired.. they just assume I'd do 5 photoshoots, design the computer and print it out for her free. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN PRINCESS.
Well that was the week.
Kind of a vent session but this why I got this to write out anything and everything.
But! I got a cute new picture of my pastor/school principle's grand daughter.
so very adorable. OH AND I'M GETTING A NEW LENS TODAY. 55-200 mm. woohoo.
AND I GOT A FLICKR. check it out.
http://flickr.com/photos/natahshapriya
bye my lovelies.. aka jennifer who is the only one is who reads this.
natahsha..
Homework and friend drama just seem to be consuming us. Joy.
Well, actually, I meant joy in the sarcastic sense, but it was a good reminder to me. Have joy, Tasha. Your worth is not in your grades or your photos. Your worth is not in this world. You worth is unspoilable. <3
Very true, this school year is absolutely time consuming and ridiculous.
and i love you dearly. <3