Actually, why I've been odd over the past few days revolves around this situation. In an effort to create a scrapbook for him, throw a goodbye party and to spend time with him... it's earned me a big ole' target on my back. Everyone from his siblings to the teachers have been in a constant attack against me. I have no idea why, but lately it seems that all my work accomplished in Lent has been thrown out the window. Initially, I was going to skip tomorrow, but I found out tonight that tomorrow is his last day. So, I'm forcing myself to go. There's a huge story that will probably continue tomorrow which has led me to deactivate Facebook and get off AIM. I know that I over exaggerate, but how am I in the wrong for wanting to create memories for a friend? I understand that it is a lot of emotion baggage right now and it's very difficult on everyone. I mean, doesn't everyone who moves have a goodbye party? I got questioned for my motives and people asked me why I am putting so much effort in. I'm simply trying to stay positive in this situation. Of course I'll miss him, he's like a little brother to me. But, I don't want to cry and reminisce about the past, only to scare and frighten him. I want him to leave knowing that God has a plan for him. Success in the future and a path that will lead him into the Glory of God. We will miss him, and we will cry. However, this is a beginning of a beautiful chapter in a life. A chapter of opportunities, rebirth, faith and love.
I say too much without thinking. Also, I just reactivated my facebook. I SUCK AT SELF DISCIPLINE.
