Dec
31
That 2010 is gonna be a good year.That 2010 is gonna be a good year.
That 2010 is gonna be a good, good year.
woohoo. :]
Dec
29
Is college really a new beginning?Cause it's my last chance to make a new beginning.
But, there's that fear that I'll fail there (socially) and will be stuck with the friends I have right now. I suppose that makes me seems so jaded and selfish. I never went to a school, and I've never been socially involved with anything except youth group. I want to start over with new friends and a whole new positive attitude.
Also, University starts in a week. I'm excited & nervous. Don't know what to expect. I want to make new friends. I don't want all my younger, 'high school' friends. I'm looking for something more mature. But in reality, am I asking for too much? I know with me complaining, the problem starts with me. However, what if there is a slight chance it isn't me? I guess you can only try fix yourself.
Is it possible though, to wipe out your past and start over? Or, in the process will you be buried under your efforts?
I'm confused.
Dec
12
If you’ve heard of lockers you know people are dying for invites.
Here’s the next big time: Swag Bucks.
Free Registration. Collect Points. Hello, awesome site?
I think so.
Nov
18
I took that picture. :]
V
Nov
10
Heading off tomorrow to see the Atticus tour in Seattle. This venue is larger, so I don't know if they'll even let me in with my camera. Praying that they do. So, I'll be seeing Finch, Blessthefall, Drop Dead Gorgeous, Of Mice & Men, Let's Get It and The Sky Electric. 6 BANDS THAT I MAY GET TO SHOOT. ME = HAPPY. Praying it all work out. Long drive down there, also I have some promos that I need to finish up for Fearless. Hopefully I'll get to see a load of kids who want some free stickers and mini-posters?
I'M HAPPY. I'M GOING TO EAT CHIPOTLE, BUY SOME VINYL. HANG OUT WITH BANDS. GET SOME AWESOME PICTURES. EAT MORE CHIPOTLE. AND BUY THE OFFICE ON DVD.
Okay, sleepy time. I'm still sick and need all the rest I can get.
Nov
03
The new album from 'Every Avenue' is now out. Be sure to get your copy on itunes!
I've had a listen, and it's really good. If you're into the pop/rock bands... go for it!
Oct
31
Want a free song from Eye Alaska?
Head on over to Pac Sun to download 'Walk Like A Gentleman' for free!
Oct
29
The record comes out on Tuesday. It's really good, believe me.
you'd like to hear it before you buy it, Alloy.com is streaming the whole album.
Be sure to check it out, either pre-order or buy it in stores on Tuesday, November 3rd!
Oct
28
Tomorrow is the big day. I'm meeting with a record producer to show my photography portfolio. He really liked the band shots I did for some friends, that he's recording. So, I'm just really praying that this opens up some doors. I have my portfolio ready to go with everything from portraits to live shows to band shoots. Should be fun.
Oct
08
is horrible. more specifically when you haven't slept in about three weeks.i literally can feel my immune system failing.
i'm moody, selfish and angry. and i don't like it one bit.
i'm on about three different meds and they can't be taken at the same time.
only because they set off negative reactions.
i have to go to the states saturday and i probably won't be able to.
either because i'm really sick or that my mood will tick off anyone that i'll meet.
i hate being sick. i also hate working while i'm sick.
also, the thought of college terrifies me.
i'll stop being so negative. i just needed someone/something to vent at.
Oct
06
A new album is out by the band blessthefall, called 'WITNESS'
I gave it a listen, pretty darn good.
If you're into A Skylit Drive, Agraceful, Every Time I Die and The Devil Wears Prada, be sure to check out blessthefall.
Even go ahead and add them on myspace, too!
p.s i'm not spamming you, lulz. i work for the fearless records street team and it's kind of my job to do these promos.
:]
Oct
02
This song brings me to tears. In reality, it's only in Christ.
Only in Him are we complete.
Sep
28
I've slacked in my blogging duties. Simply because I'm starting to get busy and any free time that I have, I end up being a lazy sloth. However, I'm going to make an earnest effort to blog more. Updatesssss.
TRANSCRIPT IS FIXEDEDEDEDEDEDED! This pleases me so.
Photography is starting to turn into a small business, which also pleases me.
I'm pushing myself to finish vocal coaching so I can update to advance singing, woo!
Oh yeah, I'm accepted at Capilano U. :D
Anyways, I've learned quite a bit over past few weeks. Whether it's simply growing up or I'm finally coming to my senses. I've taken a new outlook on my life.
... I promise I'll finish that tomorrow, I'm sleepy and need to go to bed. However, my insomnia is back so we'll see how well that goes tonight.
Sep
01
I'm a photographer... but I want to be a singer. As much as it may seem as a fantasy, it's a dream that I'll not give it up. However, my passion burns, yet I ignore the urge to practice. I constantly plan shoots to become a better photographer, but that's not where my heart is. Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful that God has gifted me. However, I know there is another calling that I'm ignoring. Some people don't understand, it's easier for me to take pictures. Singing practice with my coach is an hour and forty-five minutes everyday, just on vocal exercises alone. Then, followed by an hour of singing. Considering, all I get to do is sit and make strange noises. There is a lot to do, and not many people get that. I'm frustrated, as I've made so much progress as a musician that I don't use it as motivation to grow. God has given the opportunity to have an amazing coach. I need to see it as a blessing and then turn it into a passion burning fervently. I have 5 months before I head to University. 5 months to master something that I was supposed to finish in the matter of 6 months back in June 2008. 5 months before I can even venture into the idea of starting a band.I will push myself.
I will practice.
I will not give up.
I need to stop procrastination.
I need to get my priorities right.
Aug
23
The infamous trip involved: getting lost on the highway, eating Chipotle for the first time, buying clothes, all you can eat buffets, being guest listed, watching a show side stage, making new friends, dinner with Jeffree Star and hugs. lots of hugs. i like hugs. :]
Aug
10
First off, these are absolutely pointless. However, cause they do compare your personality to a literary piece... I was intrigued. I also find the description very accurate. Especially the compassion thing. Every time I see an elder, someone suffered with development issues, someone poor, someone with heart ache, people without jobs, kids without fathers/mothers. This list goes on, so I won't bother you with it. You are Alice, from Lewis Carroll's timeless masterpiece. You're an inquisitive person with a great sense of empathy and compassion. You have a deep, but quiet, love for others, especially the less fortunate. Some might criticize you for being headstrong, but most see your boldness as an endearing quality. You don't always fit in with the rest of society, but you follow your heart, and you have a good head on your shoulders. Although you occasionally have to struggle to find your place in the world, you never compromise your integrity. You are who you are, love it or leave it.
Aug
07
diffident |ˈdifidənt|adjectivemodest or shy because of a lack of self-confidence
Couldn't be more right.
Aug
04
I want something new, something edgy. Nothing trendy like scene side-bangs or blonde highlights. I have 3 narrowed down. Just give input or whatever, cause I'm confused. First off: my normal long hair. same length but some layers in.
second: same length, maybe some layers and bangs in the front.
third: same length, layers and side bangs.
Also, got to love the power of photoshop. :D
Aug
04
Of course my trip to get my ID came to stop, as again I don't have secondary ID. So, we're getting my health card mailed which may take up to ten days. Side note, Seattle is in 13 days. After that, it's a passport struggle. I'll have to pay express, but I need a valid reason. The reason also needs to be approved by the passport officer, so if they decide no... I'm stuck. My whole summer has revolved around this Seattle trip. If I can't, I'll seriously be heart broken. I've been so excited for this since the concert date was mentioned. I messaged one of the band members if they could email me a statement, as to way I need to be there. :D
Prayer, prayer, prayer. I can't do anything else but I'm praying God sort it out. I will admit, it is my fault for not getting my documents faster. I just got caught up with summer and forgot. I'm just really praying it all works and I'll be able to go.
Aug
03
I had my nose pierced when I was 11, yes 11, while in Fiji. Took it out after I got really sick andwasn't allowed to put it back in. Well, now is the time that I will be getting it re-pierced. Pictureee of how it many look.
Also, I have prayer requests. I'm having problems with my passport being accepted as I don't have any other picture ID to verify. I'm going tomorrow to get my Enhanced Driver's License. Prayer that even though I don't have it, that they will make an exception. Prayer also for my grades regarding the transcript.
Jul
31
I haven't blogged for a few weeks, as some of you may have noticed. The excuses either range from 'Eh, not in the mood' or simply 'Where do I even start?' There's been a lot of ups and downs the past few weeks. My grades for school messed up, and the government failed me for 2 courses. Which baffles my teachers as I had very good marks in those classes. Then, my transcript is missing my grades for Math 11, History 12, Marketing, Entre, Geography, Math 12 and French. I can't even apply for CapU until that's figured out. Prayers are appreciated regarding this. Also: financially, socially, physically and mentally... frick. I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe God will carry some wisdom through the melodies of Matt Thiessen, Bryce Avary or Jon Foreman.
I'll elaborate more on the next blog.
PS. BOYS ARE STUPID CREATURES.
Jul
11
Gory death = WakefieldSad death = Trish, Sully, Danny
Emotional death = Henry
Killer revealed = Henry
Wakefield's Child = Henry
So, I was kinda right. I was thinking it was Henry until someone mentioned that it may not be the same person.
BUT YAY ABBY AND JIMMY!
I want this show on dvd as soon as it comes out.
Jul
09
if you watch the show. let me know. :D if you don't ignore this post.
Survivors as of Ep 11: Danny, Sully, Shea, Madison, Trish, Henry, Abby and Jimmy. oh and that creep Wakefield.
Someone had this on the discussion, and it's pretty much copy and paste cause I agree.
Gory death = Danny or Wakefield
Sad death = Trish
Emotional death = Jimmy (I really really don't want this to happen, but I think it's inevitable)
Killer revealed = Henry or Sully or Madison
Wakefield's Child = Henry
Sad death = Trish
Emotional death = Jimmy (I really really don't want this to happen, but I think it's inevitable)
Killer revealed = Henry or Sully or Madison
Wakefield's Child = Henry
I have no idea who is going to survive. But i just want Abby and Jimmy to live. <3
____________
*EDIT*
Accomplice: Sully or Madison
Child: Henry
Jul
03
I mentioned in the beginning of the year about starting a reading list of 25 or 50 books? Obviously as I don't remember the number, I haven't read any. Well, know that I am a free grad, I have a lot of free time, until I find a job. Haha, I double checked, and it's 25 for the year and I want to cram 15 in 2-3 months? HAHA. Oh well, I'll try. So here's my list so far. My list for the summer is 15 books.
1) 1 - Anne of Green Gables by Lucy Maud Montgomery
2) 2 - Anne of Avonlea by Lucy Maud Montgomery
3) 3 - Anne of the Island by Lucy Maud Montgomery
4) 4 - Anne of Windy Poplars Lucy Maud Montgomery
5) 5 - Anne's House of Dreams by Lucy Maud Montgomery
6) 6 - Anne of Ingleside by Lucy Maud Montgomery
7) 7 - Rainbow Valley by Lucy Maud Montgomery
8) 8 - Rilla of Ingleside by Lucy Maud Montgomery
9) Macbeth by Shakespeare
10) Secrets From the Vinyl Cafe by Stuart Mclean
11) The Catcher In the Rye by J.D Salinger
12) 1984 by George Orwell
13) East of Eden by John Steinbeck
14) Dinner at a Homesick Restaurant by Anne Tyler
15) An Acceptable Time by Madeleine L'Engle
Jun
29
okay just to be weird. ignore this, unless you watch the show.prediction: wakefield's helper.... henry and madison.
wakefield's kid?: henry.
okay. there we have it.
Jun
20
... Especially when we are bored.I'm so used to being so jammed pack with school work seven days a week, that this new freedom is somewhat frustrating. What would usually be a Saturday night of studying is now me painting my nails.
HAVE A LOOKSIE! I like 'em. They were originally a bright orange, then I put some gold on top... followed by a decision to do black french tips.
Jun
19
For some silly reason, my summer to-do list is on June 14th? Little weird, and it won't let me delete it. So I'll be a n00b and double post.
Because I will be free for the next few months, I'd thought I'd make a to-do for the summer. Anything from what I need to do, to what I want to do. Should be a fun summer.
1) GET PASSPORT RENEWED
2) Apply for Capilano University
3) Have at least 20 photoshoots
4) FINALLY finish music theory
5) Finish vocal coaching with Brett Manning
6) Have a somewhat distinguished vinyl collection
5) Video chats with William, Andrea and Brent.
6) Video chat with Jennifer
7) Get a job, or two?
8) Give my room, a full-clean out.
9) Travel somewhere I've never been.
10) East sushi by the Lynn Canyon waterfall
11) Have a day of epic proportions with Clarissa
12) GET MY FRICKEN WISDOM TEETH REMOVED. D:
13) Figure out Garageband and record some music
14) Go to Seattle to see Let's Get It
15) Read books, LOTS OF BOOKS
Alright, I had better intentions with this list, but it seems like my mind as gone blank
Jun
17
ARE FINISHED. FOR A LONG TIME.
UNTIL UNI.
BUT THAT'S IN JANUARY.
WOO FREEDOM!
YAY GRAD OF 09, WE'RE DONE!
Jun
14
Because I will be free for the next few months, I'd thought I'd make a to-do for the summer. Anything from what I need to do, to what I want to do. Should be a fun summer. 1) GET PASSPORT RENEWED
2) Apply for Capilano University
3) Have at least 20 photoshoots
4) FINALLY finish music theory
5) Finish vocal coaching with Brett Manning
6) Have a somewhat distinguished vinyl collection
5) Video chats with William, Andrea and Brent.
6) Video chat with Jennifer
7) Get a job, or two?
8) Give my room, a full-clean out.
9) Travel somewhere I've never been.
10) East sushi by the Lynn Canyon waterfall
11) Have a day of epic proportions with Clarissa
12) GET MY FRICKEN WISDOM TEETH REMOVED. D:
13) Figure out Garageband and record some music
14) Go to Seattle to see Let's Get It
15) Read books, LOTS OF BOOKS
Alright, I had better intentions with this list, but it seems like my mind as gone blank.
Jun
14
I don't want to post the whole situation up on here. It's quite sad when you go out of your way to make someone's last week the best it can be. Only to be shot down, talked behind your back, have your 'best friend' say rude things about you while you sit next them (thinking you can't hear them) and then to be deleted off facebook.
Seriously. Really, are people this immature? Are they that pathetic, that they need to treat people like this? It's about time people grew up. I'm happy I'm leaving that school, good riddance. Breaks my heart how Christians can not show love to one another when above all, Jesus even said it is the great of the commandments in the Bible. If this is how we treat each other, how do we expect to love the world and to minister to those with broken heart? If you can not love, you are nothing.
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.1 Corinthians 13: 1-3
Jun
12
Didn't do so well on the tests, as I thought. I tried my hardest, regardless of the circumstances I passed?
Who knows, I'm praying to God that he'll keep the mark up to let me graduate.
Dear Calculus,YOU SUCK.Love,Natahsha
Jun
12
The deadline at midnight. I have three tests scheduled today. I ended up studying for 8 hours yesterday just on trig alone, along with completing two tests earlier. I'm good at all the units, except trig. Trig is what I went tutoring for, tutoring gave me 4 assignments with a 55% average. Well, I hope it pays off today. SO HAPPY TO FINISH.
WOO! Grad 09 <3
Jun
09
June 12th is the deadline. Tomorrow I'm scheduled for a Combinatorics Exam and a Logarithm exam. Followed by a Trig Equation Exam and a Trig Function Exam on Thursday. Then a four-hour calculus final. On top of that, I still have to work on my business plan. Here's an example of how it's supposed to be:
http://www.bplans.com/pet_photography_business_plan/executive_summary_fc.cfm
All 9 pages of that, about my business which probably won't be too popular.
Ughhh.
Jun
07
My love for vinyl, seems to get stronger. As a grad gift to myself, I'm buying some limited vinyls online, woo!
Yesterday, we stopped by a garage sale at our local legion. Immediately as we entered parking lot, my eyes drew immediately to the vinyls stacked under the table. Here's what I bought:
Deep Purple: Made in Japan (Gatefold)Deep Purple: Deepest Purple - The Very Best of Deep PurpleSupertramp: Crisis! What Crisis?The Eagles: Their Greatest Hits 1971 - 1975Van Halen: Fair WarningVan Halen: Van Halen IIBoston: Third StageBoston: Don't Look BackAlice Cooper: Welcome to my NightmareAlice Cooper: Greatest HitsPeter Gabriel: Plays Live
11 vinyls for only $5
And there's my current collection of Paramore, The Devil Wears Prada and Underoath.
Jun
06
Math: Probability Test: Tuesday
Sequence Test: Monday
Log Test: Wednesday
Trig Equation Test: Thursday
Trig Function Test: Thursday or Friday
Final: Friday
French:
Final: Monday
Entre:
Business Plan: Monday - Friday
Marketing:
Lesson 6: Sunday
Lesson 8: Sunday
Geo:
Done
Grad Portfolio:
Done
English:
Provincial Exam
May
30
Okay, so they do work. But, not when you have an event that pops up unexpectedly and it screws everything up. So, here we are... all over again.
May 30th: Entre 9, Entre 10, Maybe Entre 11? or French Final.
May 31st: Entre 11 + Entre 12
June 1st: Comb/Probability Assignment, Geo Test 2 + 4
June 2nd: Probabilty Test, Sequence Test
June 3rd: Trig Function Test, Entre 12/13
June 4th: Trig Equation Test, Entre 13
June 5th: Log Test, Geo Oil Assignment
June 5th - 11th Business Plan
June 6th: Find lost marketing assignments
June 7th - 11th: Double Check for ALL ASSIGNMENTS
THEN, I'M DONE. OH HAI GRADUATION.
Also, I get to sing 'Amazing Because It Is' by The Almost. I even have a mini choir to sing on the chorus', I'm so stoked.
May
27
I thought I should mention this. Among the current chaos in my life, I found out on Saturday that one of my life long friends is moving. He isn't moving into a different province or down the street, but he's moving to Texas. It's a lot to us to handle, as we only have 4 days to spend with him, tomorrow being the last. He's moving to be with his dad, and also to have scouting opportunities for football, I tell you... this kid is going to be huge. Actually, why I've been odd over the past few days revolves around this situation. In an effort to create a scrapbook for him, throw a goodbye party and to spend time with him... it's earned me a big ole' target on my back. Everyone from his siblings to the teachers have been in a constant attack against me. I have no idea why, but lately it seems that all my work accomplished in Lent has been thrown out the window. Initially, I was going to skip tomorrow, but I found out tonight that tomorrow is his last day. So, I'm forcing myself to go. There's a huge story that will probably continue tomorrow which has led me to deactivate Facebook and get off AIM. I know that I over exaggerate, but how am I in the wrong for wanting to create memories for a friend? I understand that it is a lot of emotion baggage right now and it's very difficult on everyone. I mean, doesn't everyone who moves have a goodbye party? I got questioned for my motives and people asked me why I am putting so much effort in. I'm simply trying to stay positive in this situation. Of course I'll miss him, he's like a little brother to me. But, I don't want to cry and reminisce about the past, only to scare and frighten him. I want him to leave knowing that God has a plan for him. Success in the future and a path that will lead him into the Glory of God. We will miss him, and we will cry. However, this is a beginning of a beautiful chapter in a life. A chapter of opportunities, rebirth, faith and love.
I say too much without thinking. Also, I just reactivated my facebook. I SUCK AT SELF DISCIPLINE.
May
27
So, I didn't even go a day without AIM. I was signed in for about 20 minutes before I got lectured on how I should stay off. So, on top of that I've given up AIM for now, a week. Facebook has been deactivated on my account as well. This problem has gotten too big, so thanks to those losers I'm cutting everyone off. I'll still on my blogspot, twitter and myspace. Just where my personal 'friends' are, I've cut them off. You know what's sad? No one talked to me at school today, except for the grades 9 and under. One teacher even decided to start a fight about 2 minutes after I walked into the school. But as soon as I got onto AIM, I have three convos that pop up immediately. Pathetic, eh?
May
27
SUCK Also, I'm giving up AIM for 3 weeks.
Today is day 21, let's see how I do.
P.S., I wanted to blog about something but it's 8 in the morning and I kind of have to eat/shower/get ready for hell. *cough* I mean school.
May
20
Oh the joy of graduation. I still have to:- Finish two more geo assignments and then all the tests.
- finish two calculus assignments and then tests. D:
- study for english government exam
- business plan for entre
- and a marketing assignment that i lost
The plan is that, Geo will be finished by Friday. Monday the latest for tests. Then, next week is pretty much devoted to calculus. Hopefully next week the assignments will be done and maybe 2 tests? Then that just leaves 5? OH MY GOODNESS. Then, after it's pretty much, wait. Okay, this is my OCD kicking in.
May 20th - Geo Powerpoint Project
May 21st - Geo Powerpoint + Final Assignment
May 22nd - Unit 2 Test and Unit 4 Test.
May 25th - Unit 5 Test, Combintaroiccsjshfsjhd Assignment and Probability Assignment
May 26th - Sequence Calculus Test, Maybe Entre?
May 27th - Entre + Study for Logarithm exam?
May 28th - Entre + Study even more?
May 29th - Log exam
June 1st - Trig Functions Study + Entre
June 2nd - Trig Function Test + Entre
June 3rd - Trig Equation study + Entre
June 4th - Trig Equation Test + Entre
June 5th - Entre
June 8th - Cobomajhsdajshd + Probability Study + Entre
June 9th - Test + Entre
June 10th - Study for Final, + Entre
June 11th - Final check up on all assignments
June 12 - Calculus Final aka Last day of school.
I think that sounds about right.
OMG. JUST KILL ME NOW.
May
18
Alright, so it's official they are something. Well, okay so I think. I refuse to check but I know.I found out last night and to my surprise, I was laughing and smiling. Laughter is a healing medicine, it seems that everything that happened before meant nothing. By the grace of God, I'm moving on with my head up and with a striking confidence. It seems that everything that happened, is apart of past. There's nothing I can change, but I can learn and guard my heart. You know, if he's happy I should be happy for him. I mean, that's what friends do, right? Either way, the mercy of a creative master and director has orchestrated something magnificent. It turns out for the best, now I have one less thing to think about. He's gone and I can move on.
Last night, I prayed out to God for forgiveness and wisdom regarding relationships. I need to be a better person, God needs to shape me into a woman who radiates his love. I'm so sick of being told that I'm 'undateable'. There's still so much that needs to be done in me. My attitude to how I present myself, God has a lot of work to do in me. I just pray that I'll be able to grow into a new person who has a change of heart. I want to be the girl that other guys are jealous of. I want them to see me for my heart and who I am.
May
15
I'm not over him. Apparently, I still like him and it's evident. I don't want to like him as of right now, cause I don't know where he stands.
I don't know if they are official.
I don't even know what I want.
There's a part of me that still wants him, yet there's another saying wait..
and another telling me to simply get over it.
Everything was fine, until a week ago.
I was well on my way, to moving on.
I want to be friends, but I want to know if we could be more.
That's what bothers me, the fact that I'll have to wait around.
Also, I REALLY need to stop blogging about him.
May
12
So, considering the whole boy situation. It's probably caused more confusion than it's intended to be. Turns out, we're friends... good friends. I'm leaving it at that, I don't want to post too many details but looks like there's a good friendship starting. I need to learn to grow up and to not make assumptions because of how someone is online. It's their heart and personality when we see them in person, that's who you are friends with. Not the person online, but rather for the person that they really are. My heart is still holding onto him though, I have no idea why. I'm no longer attracted to him in that sense... but still waiting is no easy game.
May
04
I haven't bother blogging but I'll give a quick run down.- Reports came in, I made honours.
- My uncle passed away last Sunday
- My mom is in Fiji until the 16th
- I love baking blueberry muffins
That is all.
Apr
26
And then there was another girl, just as suspected. I'm completely fine with this, no really I am. Last night, I had an amazing prayer. Just tears and all my concerns and hopes poured to God and placed into God's hands. My life is his story, and he will write every chapter. I leave it at that and in the meantime I need maturity to get through the situation. This is not the end of it, and there will be the next 2-3 years where I'll be facing both HIM and HER. The feelings won't completely go away, but I can push them aside. You never know, I just might find someone that will make him seem like scum. I give it to God, my life in his hands.. forever.
'So just take my time and use it, I'm ready... So, in this hour, everything I will do will be all for this moment, everything's for you. My heart is open and will end... so take it.'
Apr
25
It has been so hard over the past few days. For those of you who I've told, seen the facebook status' and have talked to me on AIM... thank you. It's been hell over the past few weeks but lately it came to the point where I needed to draw the line. Eventually everything that I felt had to be pushed aside for various reasons. It's been so difficult but I'm trying my best to push through. I can't let this situation bring me down anymore. Although it has made me happy for the period of a few days, I've come to realize that everything was a waste of time. I can only pray the best and that we'll be friends. I want to be bitter and hostile, but that's not I want to reflect. Becoming a friend, I'll need to be consistent and I'll need to put these childish games behind me. It's hard, especially when it involves emotions but unless I take a stand this hell would become months if not.. years. All in time, if something is meant to happen I'll let God orchestrate it. My hands are far too failure prone to face another situation like this again.
Apr
23
God, take this situation and turn it around
Don’t let these hands fail me again
I’ve ran to look for an answer,
But instead I ran away from the truth
These excuses won’t save me anymore
I want to start over, give me this second chance
Apr
18
waiting. hoping. and dreamingturning into...
waiting. praying. believing.
I've never been so happy. This is weird, the smile on my face and the glow. Pray for me, and if you know about the current situation... please pray with me. I wake up in the morning praying, go to sleep praying. There is something different about this one, and I refuse to let it go.
Apr
11
BOYS ARE A MESS OF CONFUSION AND GOOD LOOKS.Also, I over react and get my signals mixed.
I don't know what to do, it seems getting all giddy about the situation, jinxed it.
Apr
05
you'll figure out the title after watching this.THANK YOU JON FOR SHAVIN' YER BEARD.
Relient K's Video
Apr
04
Lately, the more I seem to make an effort to become friendly.. the more I get hurt. It's a constant cycle that never seems to end, and I'm really fed up. I want to stop every form of communication from AIM, Facebook, Myspace.. etc, there's no point anymore. I'm highly considering saying goodbye to AIM till graduation, which is 72 days away. :] No one talks to me on that thing anyways, unless they want something or they want to vent. I barely get replies, so why am I wasting my time? I really don't know.Also, Jennifer... I found 3 'new' FF5 songs. It has two remixes and a new version of an old song. I want to send them to you. So after your Facebook lent, I'll find a way to send 'em.
Mar
31
eighteen. i'm adult.
i had a much deeper post in mind, but i'm just highly aggravated by people.
EITHER WAY.
I'M 18, AND TOMORROW I'M MAKING GARLIC CLAMS FOR DINNER.
Mar
29
JONATHAN DAVID SCHNECK, SHAVE YOUR BEARD.otherwise. this video makes me so happy.
Mar
28
I invited 44 people to my birthday party, only 8 showed up. Regardless of how short the guess list was, this was the best birthday party. We laughed and talked for hours, time was weightless. We came back to my house to hang out till 1 am. We had conversations about World War II, sports, faith and love. 'Friends' played for hours, and there was continuous laughing. We had popcorn, Arizona tea by the litre, soda and candy. We were five again, with our ice cream cake and laughter. It didn't seem as if I were turning into an adult, but rather reminiscing about the past and how much God has truly blessed me. I've had my good share of struggles, hard ships, and testing moments. These are opportunities that have prepared me for the years ahead. I am prepared for where God wants to take me, I want more opportunities. People may say 'Why do you want more problems?,' to be frank no one wants more trials but they are refining. I want to be refined at gold, I want to be gold. I want to shine before men, I want to be inspiration, I want the power of God to move through me to heal the broken hearted. My life has been a testimony, a testimony full of opportunities, not mistakes. I'm 18 on Tuesday, but I feel the process of being an adult is here. I am ready to put all that I have learned in life, into real life applications. Also, my teacher gave me a necklace that's a rectangular stick, and on the sides it says,
'Go Confidently, In The, Directions Of, Your Dreams.'
I'll cherish it forever.
Mar
26
I left today at 8:30am to leave to go to the US. We did some shopping, had breakfast at Denny's, went to an 'all you can eat' buffet. Today was definitely good.Here's what I got:A pair of silver sneakers (haha... dude i'm pimpin')Saved By The Bell (seasons 3+4 and 5) each $12.99. :]TWLOHA shirt in blue.Underoath shirtParamore All We Know Is Falling Vinyl LPBlack t-shirt that says in gold foil, 'LIVE LIFE... to the fullest'another black t-shirt that says 'Free Your Mind.. and the rest will follow'Bikini top from Target, (although I always hide myself under a black tank top)A Bible for $1.00 and some Sunday School stuff for EasterYeah, that's it.Also, I'm getting my hair cut tomorrow. I need a trim, my ends are so fried. Plus, my birthday party. Then Saturday, two shoots.ALSO. BABY B. she's so cute. We had the shoot yesterday, she is absolutely beautiful.
Mar
24
Song from Underoath, back from 1999. Inspiring, honest, and captivating.
I wait for my true love, but she never cameI cry for my true love, but she never cameI leave this world never knowing who she was, departing all alone..I'd just like to speak for a second and say that, um.. I just encourage everybody who hears this album to look towards Christ and not towards people, because people allow you to fall away, people aren't perfect. Theres only one person thats perfect and thats Christ. And I see people every day who are looking at Christ and blow Christ off because something that someone else has failed on. And its just not worth it, Christ has blessed me and every other member of this band more than any other way that I can imagine, or be spoken. Just the way everything worked out tonight was just beautiful. I just pray for each and every one of you, we wouldn't sit here and we wouldn't do this unless we wouldn't put the time into it unless it was trying to touch you, trying to reach your life and I just ask please just give your heart to Christ, and allow him to come in and just accept him. It says, “If you acknowledge that you have sinned and you ask Christ to come into you life, he will enter you life just believe that he's died on the cross for your and risen on the third day, and Christ can life for you and he with you? and I just pray that you just give him that chance to do that, you don't know what you missed, you don't know what you missed until you haven't had something and realize that its gone, then you realize what you've missed and what hasn't been in your life. And I just ask you please just give the LORD a chance to do that and I just hear a lot of people say that its just, I hear a lot of people say that its just you know, “Oh? you know, “this some religious person is trying to force this down my throat? well thats not our intent our intent's not to force this down your throat. We do this because we love you and we care for the people that do hear this. And I just wish everybody just to look towards it and give it a chance, and not fall out. There is hope, you can find it, and Christ is hope and your never gunna feel a void, your never gunna feel that huge gap and that void in your life until you turn and you look at the truth, even though you may not see it as the truth, I just pray that God will reveal himself to you and you can open your eyes, just as we were in your same shoes and he opened ours, he opened our eyes eyes.. just... even though it's this late you can't even speak, I just pray that He'll please just show you his power. This album goes out to just, the victims of rape and suicide, child molestation, people who are broken hearted, people who just cant handle life anymore and just have to fall on their knees every night and cry. There is a better way, and we have found it, please don't give up, there is a better way.Spirit of, the living GodCall fresh on, meSpirit of, the living GodFall fresh on meMelt me, Mold meFill me, LORD use meSpirit of, the living GodFall fresh on, meSpirit of, the living GodFall fresh on, meFill me, Mold meFill me, Use me,Spirit of, the living GodFall fresh on, meLORD melt me, LORD use me, LORD fill me, LORD mold meLORD make me, the person you want me to be LORD. LORD take me, and mold my, my mind. Renew my mind LORD, help me not to listen to this world, politicians people of this world, who only long to bring me hate and frustration. Help me to think for myself, to obtain knowledge, think! think for my selfSpirit of, the living GodFall fresh on, me
Mar
23
I've always wanted to know my GPA. Considering that I am going to University next year, I'd thought I'd give it a whirl. Including that I barely passed Calculus, But managed to get at least 85% in my all my classes. I got a 3.65. I don't know if that's good or not. But I think it's good? Haha, I don't know.Also, for the past four nights I've been up very late. Hence, my late night blog. For some reason, I just can not sleep. My wanders off, and my imagination runs wild with haste. Thank God, I have a two week break. That's all I can say.
Mar
22
DARN YOU SCHEDULE!I think I lost the darn thing.
Ignore thissss.
WEEKLY PLANNED SCHEDULE
Monday;; 11am - 2pm [library] - afternoon;; FREE.
Tuesday;; 11:30am - 2:30pm Photo shoot [Selena] - afternoon;; FREE.
Wednesday;; 10:30am - 2pm Metrotown [w/ Jessie] - 3pm - 5pm Photo shoot [Baby Bjorgen] - 5:30pm - 7:45pm Photo shoot [Sharon's Music Studio] - 8pm [Church]
Thursday;; YAY GOING TO THE STATES WITH MOM! YIPEE.
Friday;; (no time discussed) Possible reschedule for Baby Bjorgen's Photo shoot - 3pm [Get Hair Done] - 6pm - 9pm BIRTHDAY PARTY, SQUEE. (Jessie, Charla and possibly Sarah to sleep over)
To Do List;;
French 9a - 9c HAND IN.
Marketing [ all assignments are completed, remember to hand in before 30th)
Re + schedule due to Rain;;
Keesha + daughters Photo shoots
Herla, Jessie and Cassia Photo shoot (Tuesday Afternoon?)
Ksenia's Photo shoots
Mar
22
Here is my twitter: http://twitter.com/natahshapriya I finally hopped on the band wagon about a week or so ago. Follow me, so you may be annoyed by my pointless, random palaver.
;D
Mar
19
I have a project due for Geo 12. I did my internet and text book research. Now, I just have to write the essay. It's 500 - 750 works MAX, which I'm not used to at all. On top of that, I need to get some books at the library. It's due next Friday, but I have two weeks for Spring Break. The other kids at my school will be attending next week, I won't. So today, thanks to the rain, there's no photo shoot. This means, I can do more research? Outline, paraphrase and then next week I can go to the library? I don't know. Haha, I'm finicky. BUT! I bought this gorgeous red plaid dress yesterday. There was only one in the store, and it was an extra small. It's red, plaid, strapless and hip hugging. I want to get my hair done up with stunning earrings for my birthday. I'm excited. Oh, I forgot to tell you it was on sale from $50 to $20. Also, I got three new songs last night. My friend Jessie and I were talking about music, and I decided to let her check them out. I've showed her my lyrics before, in fact she was the first person ever to read them. I wanted to post them, but I'm really finicky this morning. Haha.
Oh! March 28th, I get to have the house to myself. I'm making my parents own me the day alone. I'm going to watch movies, bake my salsa-cheese chicken and relax.
My blogs lack substance, STOP RAMBLING NATAHSHA!
ugh.
Mar
18
I was at MetroTown with Ashleigh today. We were having some sorbet that's in front of a 'Rip Curl' store. I saw this really cute guy there. For once, I made eye contact with a cute guy. My friend and I, both saw him looking at me. He would try to fix something, then quickly glance my way, several times. I was seriously thinking that he was looking at my friend, but they never made eye contact. I hide myself behind my purse and he still looked. After we finished, we went into the store to check it out a bit. He was on a different side of the store, and there was a girl near us who worked there. He actually walked over and asked 'How is everything', while making eye contact with me. I just stood there like 'Whaaa?' then my friend quickly replied with 'We're fine, thanks.' He's really cute. I wanted to say 'hi' so badly, but this is the first time that I have tried to go up to a guy. He tried to talk to me but seemed really shy. But, I'm really confused. He isn't her type, but he's the type of guy that I'm really into. For once a guy like this is actually looking at me. He has plugs, 'emo' hair, some tattoos and really a cute smile. I don't want to think about him and get my heart into a knot. I'll spend all night thinking about him. Ugh. Just thought I'd update you all, I'm so freaking giddy right now it's ridiculous.
Mar
17
THERE WAS NO RAIN.silly weather man.
I don't know if it is jealousy of not, but every time I have a shoot with this girl... I leave feeling hideous. My self-esteem goes down and for week I refuse to have my picture taken. She is pretty, I won't lie; but there's coloured contacts, revealing outfits, hair extensions and lots of makeup. I don't need another of those things to get attention. She's still gorgeous, me on the other hand, I'm petite, looks like I have no chest (but I do! haha. I just wear looser clothes) I look like I'm 12. Then again, our personalities are different. I don't go through 6 boyfriends in the matter for 6 months. Hence, why I never get any attention. I feel ugly. I don't need fancy clothes, fake hair, or fake colour eyes to get attention. I don't know what it is, maybe I am not that attractive or maybe I don't need physical items to lure people in. I'm just hoping it's my personality and heart that shine. I'm praying that the compassion that Jesus Christ had radiates through me. I want to be the sunshine in people's lives, I want to be the person that shows them the beauty in life as God intended it to be. I want to be a creation of God that serves purpose, passion, purity and personality. That is what I want people to be attracted to.
Note: I sound very judgmental here, I'm not trying to be. However it tends that all with all my friends, this applies. I don't know if it is something wrong on my end or if it's how how girl's portray themselves. I don't know, I'm just hoping a nice boy likes me for my heart and not my body.
Here's a shot. This shoot turned out really good, I'm glad my portfolio is getting bigger.
Mar
16
The breakfast went very well. We had some really good food followed by great conversation and window shopping. She talked about her family, marriage and job. I listened and prayed for her in my head. To be really honest, I'm scared about what happens in her home. I know her husband has anger problems, and she's confirmed he's possessive. I'm praying for her. I would hate to think that he's laid his hand on her. However, I just told her to pray, pray, pray. God holds the power and wisdom for perfect timing. Also, she can't even see her own family that lives up here, and she started to cry. Again, I'm praying. I'm starting to learn that prayer is the safest, most efficient and powerful tool any person can use. Use it well.
Mar
15
It's complex, revolting, enjoyable and quirky. Today we've had rain, snow, sunshine, hail, heavy winds... what's next brimstone and raging fire? The weather is driving me insane, My photo shoot plans have to move because the weather decides to be spontaneous. It's ridiculous. Also;; I have a new friend! She the wife of one of the guys from church. She's from Ghana. She's actually the cousin of a guy who is literally my brother. There's a complex issue within the family with the family seeing each other and what not. She doesn't have anyone up here for a friend. Every girl needs a girlfriend to talk to. So I've invited her to go out for breakfast in the morning. Some good, chatting time. I'll be a friend; a friend that listens more than they speak. For anyone that knows me, it is fairly difficult to get me to shut up. I like to talk, hence my love for the art of conversation. :] I'm hoping to make a good friendship, a valuable one. She has a heart after God, it's great. She's from Africa, what can I say? Seriously, you do not know worship until you go to a black church. The worship moves right through you and gives you such a exhilarating feeling. It's radioactive and it will stay on you for days. Besides the point, I'm looking forward to tomorrow. It's such a great restaurant, if any of you [my lovelies] come to Vancouver, we're going there. It's yum, haha.
Also;; first lyrics that I will ever post. SHHHH.
Are you ready?Ready to drop it all at the line?Ready for a new start?We're in it for the long run.You're not running this alone.
It's just the ending. Comments? I might take it off in the morning or something. I can't believe I just put those up. AHAHA. I MADE IT SO TINY.
OKAY GOOD NIGHT. :]
Mar
15
I CAN'T FIND MY SCHEDULE. SO I HAVE TO WRITE THIS SOMEWHERE.
Tuesday;; Photoshoot w/ Gurpreet [11am - 2pm]
(leave phone on, to see if she's out of the hospital)
Wednesday;; Photoshoot w/ Ksenia [11am - 1pm]
Thursday;; Photoshoot w/ Keesha and daughters [11:30? - 2]
Friday;; Edits & birthday party for Jodi [6pm] stay over at Ashleigh's? (clarify!)
Saturday;; Mom + I, drive down to the States.
Sunday;; come back.
Mar
15
Mothers are peculiar creatures. They nurture, feed, teach and discipline. They seem to never run out of energy, they constantly strive for a better life for their children. Also, mothers seem very 'old school.' They think the clothes we enjoy are off-spun and bizarre, our music is too loud or just gibberish and our favourite shows are nonsense. That's a mom's point of view on many things, however my mother surprised me today. I finally got the courage to show my mom some of my lyrics. To my surprise, she was actually speechless. Her speechless soon turned into how amazed she was. I was in awe of how she reacted to be really honest. She loved them, SHE REALLY LOVED THEM. I preceded to play her some music I came up with yesterday; She loved it too. I'm flabbergasted. We also went out for lunch, so I decided to play her some of my favourite bands. I played her A Day To Remember, she loves Jeremy's voice. Even more shocking, she actually understood his growls. Is this my mother? Goes to show you to never underestimate a mom. They will surprise us. Show them something new and odd, and you'll be surprised. Also. I ate too much candy yesterday. I threw up. I haven't eaten for 24 hours. Well, we had lunch and that was the 24 hour mark. I feel like I am going to die.
Mar
14
Spring break is officially here. I'm more than excited to have the week off. To make things even better, because I am ahead in my subjects I get an extra week. My online school gives two weeks, my 'school' gives one. This extra week will help me rest my knee as well as plan some photo shoots. I'm only on day one and have never experienced such boredom. I kind of cleaned my room, we will leave it at that. I wrote 5 songs yesterday, they are typed and added. I have 31 songs now, hopefully once I start to piece the music and lyrics together I'll post something. :] My lyrics aren't great or significant but they are *insert word here.* I'm too afraid to actually post my lyrics, because I don't want to be flamed, ridiculed or embarrassed. I need to get over this if I want to have a band, haha. I also have a few goals for this break. Considering that I didn't do it for either Summer '08 or Christmas, FINISH MUSIC THEORY. My book is right beside me, so I've decided to finally start and finish it. Also, I want to write 'better' blogs. Something that shows, growth, understanding and emotion. I'm a little sick of my little rambles, but I have no one else to share it too. So from now on, the goal to post my ramble but also something that has been in my heart.
I'm too selfish, I really need to fix this. I feel that God has given me significant purpose, but my selfish attitude stifles were God can take me. He can move my spirit, but my flesh is hindering it.
Mar
10
After being told by my doctor that I may not do any physical activity, I made a huge mistake. More so on my teachers part, rather than mine. During soccer we have two games going on; One game has two teams actually playing soccer game and then the other two teams trying to keep the ball in the court. While on the outside keeping it in, the ball went flying by three feet away. I drove for it, missed but also happened to land on my right knee. I have pains shooting up my leg and it's so painful. The teacher said I would be able to do it, I was but I caused more damage. Barely 5 minutes after the game, I call my dad to pick me up. I chickened out of my x-ray the past two days but I'm scheduled tomorrow. I think I screwed my knee up more, I can barely make it down the stairs. Also, I need to blog about my university updates. Let's just say, Capilano University was to be my University. Now, my friend wants to go. I want her to leave me alone there. I want new friends and a new social life. Go to a different school, don't go to mine! There's more to this, I'll blog it later in the week. Hopefully she doesn't see this. :/
Sorry, this is a pointless blog. haha.
Mar
08
I finally posting this darn thing. haha.This is enough for 2 people.
Base your servings as 2 chicken breasts per person.
Base your servings as 2 chicken breasts per person.
INGREDIENTS:
4 chicken breasts (leave the bone in)
3 garlic cloves
1 1/2 cups of salsa (of your choice)
1 cup of grated cheddar cheese
pinch of garlic powder.
1 quarter of a small onion finely chopped OR a few green onions
Uncle Ben's Spanish Rice
Olive oil
INSTRUCTIONS:
Preheat your oven to 375°F
First, start off in a pan with a little olive oil and your sliced garlic cloves. Toss your chicken in, skin side down first. Pinch some garlic powder and salt on chicken. REMEMBER YOU AREN'T COOKING THE CHICKEN YET. THIS IS FOR ONLY BROWNING. Flip the chicken over, pinch some powder and salt, wait till both sides are golden brown.
Take your chicken out, and place it into a small baking dish. The chicken should not over lap, but it should fit perfectly. Get your oil and garlic from the pan and mix it with your 1 1/2 cups of salsa. Sprinkle about a handful of cheese into your salsa mix and pour it onto the chicken. Making sure the mixture covers the chicken on top and on the side, if not... just had some more salsa. With the last of your cheese sprinkle it on the top of your chicken.
Use foil to cover your baking dish and put it into the oven (375°F) for 30 - 45 minutes. While your chicken is baking, use some oil to sweat some onions. Then in the same pot had and follow the directions of the Spanish Rice. If you have some green onions just had it to your rice.
After all is done, plate and enjoy!
Hope those of you who try this, i hope you like it. :]
natahsha priya
About
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I have two h's in my name. I'm a Christian.
I sing my heart out. I take pictures.
The library is my favourite place.
I watch Friends too much. I love real, deep conversations that make you think, love and grow.
I think too hard at times.
I can be awkward and quirky.
I'm a perfectionist.
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